Timing

It seems kind of like my whole life I have had a plan. It is similar to probably most....graduate high school, go to college, find a job...

Now I find myself in a position that I didn't expect.... I did it.

However, instead of feeling a sense of accomplishment, I feel more lost. My plan is gone. Now, two words keep going through my head, "now what?"

Last Saturday I realized my plan was gone and had a small breakdown. I like to call it my "mid-life crisis." I'm not sure where the Lord wants me to be. I've looked into graduate programs and met with counselors to discuss future educational plans. I've looked into hair school, culinary school, or obtaining a pilot's license. I've looked into cruise lines and flights, investigating the adventures outside of Orem, Utah. However, nothing is fitting. Nothing is feeling right. So then I decided that although I don't know where I'm going, I need to be prepared for wherever the Lord takes me so... I bought shoes. I love shoes. I've always loved them. Not that I need or want dozens, but I like shoes because they allow me to go places. They are the means by which I get around and am able to do what I do day to day. I may not know exactly where I'm going, but I will be prepared to act on the Lord's timing.

I learned something about timing today as I was practicing my violin. I have decided to start a Celtic band with my friend Devan. It has been years since I've really played my violin. Anyhow, as I was practicing the music, it occurred to me that timing is everything. I could have the notes completely right and have the bowings spot on, but it's the timing that makes the song. Timing. I think the Lord was trying to teach me something. To figure out the timing, it takes time. I have to slow down. I have to count out loud and choose to follow the music, rather than do my own thing because if I don't, I won't be in the position I need to be in when Devan and I play together.

I have a testimony that everything testifies of Christ and as we evaluate our routine, like buying shoes and playing music, we will find the good things in our routine testify of Christ love. The gospel is true and I'm so grateful the Lord has a hand in my life teaching me these little lessons day to day.